Small Hope

I want to make something very clear. I still don’t feel perfect. I’ve felt better before and I believe I will feel better in the future, but right now I feel better than I have for about 2 months. For a Twenty-Two-year-old, two months of depression is disheartening. I thought that it had to do […]

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A Move Away from Minimalism

Last night, I bought a turntable so that I could play vinyl. This purchase had a lot of thought going into it. Obviously, it is difficult to store, travel with, and care for vinyl, but it has in just the few hours of listening changed my relationship with music. When I was growing up, I […]

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Deep Rest

“You should think of ‘depressed’ as ‘deep rest.’ Your body needs to be depressed. It needs deep rest from the character you’ve been trying to play.” -Jim Carrey I want to make it clear that this is not a cry for help, and that I am okay. This is a phase of depression that will […]

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Burnout

I talk a lot about productivity and goals. This is a bit odd because I became a musician as a way to escape that kind of thinking, and I’m not sure where I went wrong. The reason that I’ve been so worried about goals and the future is that I am unhappy with my job […]

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Finding the Tao in Music

            “Be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.”                                                                                     -Lao Tzu             The Tao is many things, and I want to make it clear that when I discuss it, it comes from a […]

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